Today was a tough day. Worse than Valentines Day, but for the same reason.
Yet another engagement party of a friend to go to.
Don't get me wrong - I love it that these 2 have found each other and are committing to a life together. And I had fun trying some new things while making a card for them.
But I have to be honest, I really didn't feel like celebrating someone else's engagement, when I'm still obviously single. It doesn't help that this couple is really young (more than 10 years younger than me).
Thinking about it resulted in a totally BLUE day, and I nearly decided not to go.
I think it's also hitting me harder because I don't have my best friend around these days. She is off in Africa doing amazing things as she serves God. On one hand I wish she was back here with me, but I know that she is where she needs to be, serving God.
I did have some great conversations with people - catching up with them. One of them ended up being about how a friend has been trying to match me up (we've had this conversation a couple of times). Tonight she surprised me by suggesting looking into online dating.
Honestly, I don't think it's the right thing for me. So I'll keep waiting. There have been a few conversations with people about my singleness lately, so it's in my mind quite a bit.
Still nothing yet, but if you're a praying person, when you read this would you please pray for me. I can use all the prayer I can get right now.